Wonder

I wonder how your hair feels, against my cheek, as you rest your head on my shoulder, the weight of it pressing me gently into the bed. Your arm, across my chest, hand on my opposite shoulder. Your leg, draped over mine. I wonder how my arm would feel, wrapped around you, holding you closer and closer yet. I wonder how it would be to turn my head and look down, to have you tilt your head up toward me, our eyes meeting, though they're too near to see well, before we press our lips together in a kiss. I wonder what it would be like to then lay my head back and close my eyes, and drift gently off to sleep with you there, body against mine, Luna peeking in at us through the window. I wonder what you would say to me as you see my eyes slowly open hours later, in the new morninglight. I wonder how long we would stay there together, talking, kissing, laughing, loving, before we finally break down and get ready for the day. I wonder how we would spend the day together, just the two of us. I wonder how we would spend other days together, with the whole crew. I wonder if I will ever know these things. I wonder what's stopping me from trying to find out. I wonder… I wonder…